5: Freedom and Discipline

 As far as your self-control goes as far goes your freedom.

Maria Ebner Von Eshenbach

This section includes all birth numbers with 5 as a primary life purpose, including 14/5, 41/5, 23/4, and 32/5. Even through all four of these birth numbers reflect intense 5 energy, the qualities, issues, and character of each birth number have a unique flavor due to the influence and interaction of the other numbers .

32/5 & 23/5

5: Freedom and Discipline

2: Cooperation and Balance

3: Expression and Sensitivity

Understanding Life Purpose

    Those on the 32/5 or 23/5 life path are here to work through issues related to independence, emotional honesty, and cooperation, finally experiencing freedom through discipline and depth of experience. Since out life pat presents hurdles to overcome, both 32/5s and 23/5s confront internal challenges, tendencies, and conflicts in areas of dependence and independence, responsibility, and honest expression of emotion.

    Individuals working 32/5 or 23/5 are nearly identical in terms of the fundamental energies of their birth number, the only difference being the reversed order of the 3 and 2. Most 23/5s tend to be late bloomers, taking longer to come into their confidence due to the more predominant 3 energy, with its issues of sensitivity and self-doubt; they also have stronger fears along with a stronger drive toward expression then  32/5s.

    Most 32/5s have deeper issues around cooperation that their counterparts; they tend to give their all for someone, event letting go of their own multifaceted identity and, chameleonlike, adapting to the values, interests, and desires of their partner. Then, somewhere down the line, to the degree they have ignored their own need, they may withdraw emotionally or become resentful.

This is not to say that 32/5s don't display the self-doubt of 23/5s or that 23/5s don't have the issues around cooperation of their 32/5 counterparts, but the relative influence of 2 and 3 energies differs in each case based on their position in the birth number.

    Both 32/5s and 23/5s are here to experience true freedom. The phrase true freedom implies the idea of false freedom - for example, self-indulgence, irresponsibility, or license - when 32/5s or 23/5s insist on doing whatever they want to do, whenever they want to do it. Only those 32/5s and 23/5s who have not yet matured into a more positive expressions of 5 strive for such "freedoms"

    The freedom sought by most of 32/5 and 23/4s manifest as drive to experience and know; this freedom entails a sense of mobility if different arenas of life - physical, mental, emotional, social, sexual, and financial. Those working w 32/5 or 23/5 seek to explore opportunities and find adventure where they can, whether in life, in books, or at the movies.

    Sometimes the drive for experience is so strong that 32/5s and 23/5s end up trying to juggle to many things to avoid missing an opportunity and end up feeling scattered or depleted. Many 32/5s, in particular, burn their candle at both ends. While 23/5s may have less confidence af first and 32/5s are more likely to overreach their limits, both are quick learners, living by their wits, with varied abilities and experience.

Both 32/5s and 23/5s can sometimes focus obsessively on whatever they are doing and lose sight of the bigger picture. Like all 5s, they need discipline, focus and a sense of priorities to help free themselves, be themselves, the freedom from self-doubt, the freedom from fear. Only by establishing this internal sense of expansiveness can they feel the fulfillment of their destiny in the external world. However, one way to generate internal freedom is by facing outer experience. Since the external world reflect the world of out psyche, by tackling outer challenges, both 32/5 and 23/5s have a chance to confront and transcend the issues of self-doubt and cooperation that binds them. Adventures, whether large or small, serve the well as they stretch their limits, take some emotional risk, and explore their capacities.

    The energy of 2, which sometimes tend toward overcooperation, combined with dramatic energies of 3 and 5, can generate a find of "martyr complex". These individuals want to save people, save the world and fight for freedom. The more dramatic the means, the better. Writing to congressional representatives just isn't enough for them. They prefer drama - both on television and in real life.

Since 32/5s and 23/5 tend to be quick-witted, fast learners, they also get bored easily. Boredom is their personal hell. If things get boring, they generally stir up little drama on their own. Ultimately, the freedom they seek entails illumination and spiritual liberation - expanding the consciousness to the point where the universe becomes their playground. At this point, their body no longer feels like a prison, because they have cultivated their visual imagination and their innate clairvoyant (clear-seeing) abilities and can "travel" far beyond their body.

    The most 5s have explored many areas of life. The liability is that they get broad range of experience, but a relatively shallow one. Through discipline and focus, both 32/5s and 23/5s enter the depths of experience, going into a few areas deeply enough that they discover the spiritual laws that underlie all aspects of life; in doing so they ding a deeper sense of freedom. Without such discipline, 32/5 or 23/5 tend to skim the surface or get scattered trying to do everything at once. By focussing their energies and attention - by setting clear priorities and sticking with them - they go deeper into the experience of freedom. 

    Just as 2s tend to swing back and forth between the extremes of undedercooperation and overcooperatio, 32/5s and 23/5s tend to swing between the extremes of dependence and independence. Ultimately, they need to find a comfortable balance. They achieve this balance by allowing themselves to explore each extreme, learning about independence through examining their dependency issues, for example. They may find themselves dependent on others as a result of an accident, an illness, or a financial setback, or they may actively create a dependent relationship because of doubts or insecurity about their ability to take care of themselves. Their challenge is to use these experiences to reestablish a healthy balance of independence and appropriate interdependence - in the sense able to receive from others.

    Out of insecurity, both 32/5s and 23/5s tend to hide behind their social roles. They benefit from remembering that they are more than the roles they play. The ability to bluff or role-play enables 32/5s and 23/5s to manipulate others consciously or unconsciously, using emotions such as anger to get their way.

    Whether they spend their weekends going on safari or watching the soaps, skydiving or taking care of children, 32/5s and 23/5s have a vivacious quality, a renaissance view of the world. Even if they haven't yet experienced their adventurous of freedom-oriented qualities, sooner or later, in their own way, when they come into their full confidence, 32/5 and 23/5s can discover the potential of their lives, the depth, and the boundless state of freedom within.

Working with 32/5 or 23/5 in the Positive

Feeling free inside, unbounded by limiting beliefs or fears, these multifaceted individuals are willing to take emotional risks. "Adventurers in daily life" they may or may not choose to go white-water rafting or skydiving, but they have developed the discipline to dig deeply into life, into the heart of experience, rather to just skim the surface. Passionate and adventurous, like Zorba the Greek, they teach by example and excitement. Within their quick minds, they seed and describe life in new ways. They have formed good habits and enjoy variety within a daily routine. Clever, witty, and fun loving, they make the ordinary into something extraordinary.

Working with 32/5 or 23/5 in the Negative

Feeling insecure, these individuals manipulate and control others, usually by getting angry or by withdrawing.  Or they try too hard to please others and later resent others for their own imbalance. They unintentionally create situations in which they become dependent on someone or something, such as drugs or money. They give away freedom or limit their experience out of fear and self-doubt. Scattered and  quickly bored, they are emotional con artists, Lacking clear boundaries, they play different roles or experience different selves through television  or books. Addicted to dramas of one kind or another, they remain at the mercy of their search for varied experience.(Philosophical drama).

Life-Path Issues

Health

    Both 32/5s and 23/5s have a sensitive body that tends toward the slim and wiry due to their fast metabolism, which reflects the pace of their lives. Even those with a round body don't let that slow them down, because of their sensitivity, they may use fat or muscles as a psychic buffer. The throat area may reflect issues of withheld expression, but more commonly, 32/5s and 23/5s need to avoid issues of withheld expression but more commonly, 32/5s and 23/5s need to avoid overtaxing their adrenals and nervous system, since they tend to get scattered and stressed or fatigued. If they have erratic or undisciplined habits of diet or exercise, their circulatory system may suffer. 

If they use drugs as form of "adventure," they will eventually come through hard experience, to learn that drugs can only enslave them.

    A balanced, low-fat diet and regular exercise are both very important disciplines for 32/5s and 23/5s. Their exercise regimen need to include varied exercise that are fun and efficient. Cross training moving to music, dancing, martial arts, and hiking are all excellent.

Relationships

    The who travel alone in life, with no responsibilities to spouse, partner, or children, seem to have a kind of "freedom" in the sense of having no one to answer to and fewer compromises to make. But individuals do not necessarily find freedom in isolation. The influence of 2 means that, at some point both 32/5s and 23/5s have to work through issues of cooperation with self and other. Committed relationship provide the arena.

    Because of built-in challenges in the areas of freedom and independence, some 32/5s and 23/5s may project their own lack of internal freedom onto their partner, companion, or children. 

"They are blocking my freedom! They don't let me go out and do what I want to do".
Some 32/5s and 23/5s do, indeed, attract or chose partners who will bring up freedom issues or upon whom they become dependent and whom they then resent. A closer look reveals that 32/5s and 23/5s limit their own freedom. Once they take responsibility for their own life and realize that they can become the writer and director in their own movie, they cease resenting others for "stopping them" and find more freedom in cooperation that in reactive independence or isolation.

    Both 32/5s and 23/5s have and emotionally sensitive body and energy field, but both often have some difficulty revealing their feelings. In their relationships they need to find the courage to express what they feel.

    They also need to acknowledge a desire for variety and adventure and find a way to fulfill this desire with their partner if they are in a committed relationship. Whether they see their relationship as a doorway to deeper freedom and experience or as a jail determines how the relationship fares.

    In the area of sexuality, 32/5s and 23/5s can be very shy and insecure or sensual, adventurous, and passionate - or all of the preceding. They often enjoy fantasies and playing different roles. Their relationship and sexual play present an opportunity to experience new levels of liberation by breaking free of roles to find new level of emotional authenticity and vulnerability.

Guidelines and Recommendations

• You are more then the role you play; value your essence.
• Remember: Discipline and depth open the doors to freedom.
• Pace yourself, make time for relaxation, and stay healthy.
• Find the courage to be as open and vulnerable as you can.

Useful Questions

1. Reflect on the following questions:

• When I feel limited or restricted, who can set me free?
• Have I found a balance between dependence and independence?
• What it my present level of discipline and focus?
• Do I directly express what i really feel and need?

2. If these questions generate any insights, how might you put these insights into practice?

Spiritual Laws: The leverage to Change Your Life

The Law of Discipline

Discipline brings the focus and depth of experience that leads to inner freedom.

The Law of Balance
Seeing our tendency to swing from one extreme to another, we find out balance.

The Law of Responsibility

We establish mutual support by knowing when to say yes and how to say no.

The Law of Honesty

To be honest with others, we have to be honest with ourselves.

The Law of Attraction

To overcome insecurity, we need to acknowledge out vulnerability but act with confidence.